Kabhi kabhi lagta hai ki main apni life ka director hoon, par sab actors mere mood ke according act kar rahe hain. Office mein smile kar raha hoon, par andar se bas soch raha hoon ki yeh kaam kab khatam hoga?mAur fir ekdum se boss ka call aata hai, aur main phir se pretend kar raha hoon ki ha ha, bilkul, samajh gaya.
Friends ke saath hangout karte hue bhi ek ajeeb guilt hoti hai ki kya main bas time pass ke liye unke saath hoon? And then, I laugh at myself seriously, who even thinks like this? Par phir 10 minute baad, wahi thought wapas aata hai, aur main bas andar se thoda sa stress feel karta hoon, aur coffee sip karta hoon jaise sab normal ho.
Raat ko phone scroll karte hue ye sochta hoon ki kitna random ho gaya main… ye life, ye people, ye chaos. Instagram stories, memes, reels sab dekh raha hoon, par andar se ek ajeeb sa disconnect lag raha hai. Kabhi kabhi lagta hai ki sab normal hai, kabhi kabhi lagta hai ki main hi overthinking ka king hoon. Aur fir bas khud se baat kar leta hoon chill, it’s okay, everyone is confused.
Aur phir ek moment aata hai, jab kuch achanak funny ya cute ya embarrassing yaad aata hai, aur main quietly smile kar leta hoon. Ye chhoti chhoti moments hi life ko thoda manageable bana dete hain. Shayad sab ka dimaag thoda sa ulta-pulta hota hai, bas koi openly nahi kehta. Aur shayad yehi normal hai – thoda confused, thoda messy, par phir bhi chal raha hai.
Shashank Biswa
